Dan Carter was ready to quit rugby just 15 months out from this year’s World Cup triumph and credits his wife Honor for keeping him in the game.
And he has also revealed his dissatisfaction at playing second-five eighths for the Crusaders this year.
Carter, who is set to make his debut for his new French club Racing 92 this weekend, says he was set to step away from the rugby after breaking his leg, having re-built his career following a sabbatical.
“It was clear that I was at a place where I had neither the health or the form to be part of it,” Carter has written on Players’ Tribune, the site set up by American sporting superstars Derek Jeter and Kobe Bryant.
“For the first time in my life I began to question my love for the sport. I questioned whether my body could handle it anymore.
“The critics who had been going on about my age started making more sense to me. All those big plays I’d made during my career seemed like memories now. And I wondered what kind of legacy I’d leave behind.
“I was fortunate to have a wife who played hockey for New Zealand, and had a deep understanding of my personal feelings as well the psychology of sports.